I HATE MY JOB

Dear Mr. Cocktail,

It's official. I hate my job. It's been a roller coaster to downhill with my work.
I'm hating my job for many reasons..

a. We don't get over time.

I work around 10 to 12 hours a day but I never complaint. I got home so late, to tired to even have dinner,    went to sleep with my working clothes on, wake up at midnight then remember to change my clothes then back to sleep
I came to the office on Saturday just to help out
Did I complaint? No. Why? I was expecting that after I show my Company my dedication and hard work, the Company will give me more appreciation (a.k.a more money) hehe 

Month pass by, this new Company is settling down, not much to do now.. I'm on a daily-routine-work. Everyday is the same.. but I still can't go home early. My work hour ended at 5.30 PM. but I have to stay until 7 PM. Even tho I have nothing to do. Why? because my Manager said so.
We call that "The Power of Position" 
I used the extra one and half hour surfing on the net, play games, reading blogs. Still no complaint.

So work more then 8 hours with no overtime.

b. We don't get benefits.
ooouu yeaaahh.. we don't get any benefits from Company. At my first interview I ask about the beneficial, and they said "this Company is still new, we are still on to it". but I worked here past my probation, and still I haven't heard any about what we'll get. No health assurance?  No reimburse? so whenever I got sick from over working myself.. I spend more money then actually making it. Sucks? Big time!

I was patience enough at work, I'm try to stay positive.. thinking, "hey, might get a raised at the end of the day". but I was wrong....
Big Boss was not from Jakarta, the capital city of Indonesia, he lives and spend most of his time in Medan, one of the biggest city in Indonesia. When my first and second interview with him, he promise a raise but when Branch Manager talk to him recently about giving raise to the employees.. he said "No" the reason is because he paid enough, he said the salary we get if it's in Medan that amount of money will get you everywhere. I was amaze with his "intelligence"... the living cost in Jakarta is like 3-4times more expensive then in Medan. His employee and his brother who came visit us from Medan always complaint how everything is so expensive.. I can't believe he is so stupidly blind.

Pays like shit - no benefits - no overtime

but I was still patience, until

c. Lost My Family and Social Time
I feel this the most recently...  especially with sister who is getting married, I haven't been spending time with my sisters and mum like I should have. I'm the last person who knows about things.. I missed family dinner, I missed family function. it's sad...
I also haven't been hanging out with my friends as much.. I feel like a bad person because of this job.

and now my sister is getting married in 2 weeks, and my nephew from England is getting married here in a week (he is marrying my bestfriend) so all my family from England will be here on Wednesday.. they will attend my nephew and my sister wedding.
There will be a lot of family gathering (lunch, dinner, wedding, after party and all) I really don't wanna miss this

And I don't think that my Boss will give me leave for my nephew and sister wedding. I told Branch Manager about it and her respond was "wow thats a lot of leave" (I only ask for 3 days) "Let's talk about it tomorrow", but we never talk about it..
I don't know what to do now..
all I know is, I've been applying for new job. I don't think this job is worth that much to ruin my relationship with my love ones.


and now for my last reason

d. They block the Internet surfing, Google, everything except E-mail
Now I can't read blogs at my office!! suuuuuccckkkss biiigg time!! but hey, you come to the office to work. fine
if they block facebook, twitter, youtube, porn site, I don't actually mind. But my "Intelligent smart" Big Boss told the I.T to block ALL sites except email, banking and google. The shit thing is.. when you open google and the news site .. you can't open the link. All of them.. *pointless

So I CAN'T DO MY F&*%$** JOB

how the hell can I made online reservation, look for information and shit?????!!!!
I told this to the General Affair to please explain to Big Boss that I need the google to work, but his response is, "I told him, but he wants it all block" told the Branch Manager too.. but she only give me a faint smile

WTF???

it's not just me who is having trouble at work doing my job, also others. 
at this point I had enough. I can't work under a moron. I really wish I find a new job soon before I start stabbing Big Boss and Branch Manager in my dream. I tried to calm my self at Yoga but at the end of the class .. my mind was smiling but I kept repeating "kill .. kill .. kill" in my head. I start to sound like this devil worshiper or a psychopath hahahahaha I might try Muay thai after the weddings (avoiding bruises before the weddings) Punching and kicking people might help with my silence stress

So now whenever I got home, I try my best to read all the blogs that I follow, and read all their new post
(I haven't check bloglovin in 2 days there's around 280 new post unread) *sigh


Note: I really wish Indonesia is not a corrupt country so I can sue this Company and make myself filthy rich. but sadly, in here you can buy the law...

wooooshaaaaaa... beee positiiiveeeeeee (kill kill kill) hahahaha

oh well, I hope everything will be fine soon.. and I hope you have better weeks that I am.

Gud Nite World,



Ms. S